Hi

MCRx?

People are freaking out!
MCR’s facebook page has posted a kind of  teaser video.
Ah, just watch this.

 

Did you see that? There was a date in the end. The 23rd of September, 2016. There are so much rumors – like a comeback, a documentary. But my favorite one is the 10th year black parade reunion tour. The black parade album was released 10 years ago, on October 23, 2006. So they might be planning to go on a month long tour before the album’s anniversary. People are saying that the band might end their tour on the exact date it was released ten years ago. And if that’s true, US killjoys have to celebrate cause they’re the first one they’ll be singing and crying along with. And if they did a US tour, I’m hoping they would go international and land here in the Philippines. OH MY GOSH!!

This band had been a great impact in my teenage years. I’d still sing along with their songs even up to this date. They are one of my favorite bands and I’ve been wanting to see them.
I’m kinda thinking positive here but I just read a facebook friend saying ‘Each of the guys are busy doing their individual shit so don’t get your hopes up.’ Whatever this video means, I’m fine. But this better be real or I’ll cry.

I’m ill

I couldn’t sleep.
I couldn’t eat.
I couldn’t stop thinking.
I’m not sad.
This is not sadness.
But it’s not happiness, either.
I do not know what this is.
All I know is I just feel bad.
I feel bad about everything.
Things that I do and things that I don’t.
Things that bother me at night.
Things that I shouldn’t be thinking about.
Why can’t I just stop thinking?
Whats wrong with me?
Or what’s wrong with everything?
I’m so messed up.
My head aches.
I feel nauseous.
I don’t know why.
I don’t want to talk to anyone.
I want no one to see me.
They can’t see me like this –
Lone body of its loneliness.
A soul consumed by darkness.
A person who cries because of nothing.
A creature and treasure of a sinner’s sins.
I am no just hating.
I am betraying every nerve in my body.
I am failing the dream of the little girl I was.
I am killing the dying magic I was told I had in me.
How did this happen?
How did I become the opposite person I wished to be?
Am I a bad person?
Did I do something horrible that I deserve to be in this,
whatever this is?
What should I do to feel something?

I just want to feel relaxed and calm and fine and okay.
And a good night sleep, too.